My writing community is doing a Thanksgiving Shower today – any members of the community who would like to participate are posting about one thing they’re thankful for.
I was thinking about what I wanted to share…
And I decided that I’m thankful for 2020.
2020 has been one of the craziest years of my life. In 2020 I’ve gone through valleys I never saw coming. I’ve growled and made faces at current events. I’ve come sobbing to God with the weight of… life. I’ve faced the raw, unfiltered depths of my heart and winced at what I’ve found.
But I’m thankful for 2020.
Consistent with what I’ve found before, God has used the hardest times of my life to draw me closer to Him. To show me that I am truly nothing, and that He is truly everything.
I’ve learned that my life is not mine. It’s His.
I’ve learned that my future is not in my hands. It’s in His.
I’ve learned that I don’t know it all. He does.
I’ve learned that I’m not at all worthy of praise. He is.
Sometimes I’ve doubted my purpose. I’ve wondered how God could use someone so seriously flawed as myself for His glory. And He’s showed me that He can – that He’ll use even my brokenness for His glory.
What I’ve written so far makes it seem like 2020 has been a miserable year for me. Quite the contrary! God simply flooded my life with amazingness this year… I don’t even know where to start.
I’ve had the opportunity to build so many new and incredible relationships. And develop and further build old ones.
I’ve been able to move on from home education and push myself into taking my writing seriously.
I’ve journaled like crazy.
I’ve gained many new experiences (and therefore tons of new story material).
I’ve grown closer to God, worked through the rubble of my heart, and been able to keep coming back to focus on Him.
2020 has been amazing.
I’m so grateful God’s given me 2020.
Laurel Luehmann 